My Coming Out Story

My Coming Out Story

I had just broken up with my third girlfriend

In the worst way possible.

I was starting to see a pattern.

Things would go smoothly

until the subject of sex arose.

There would just be an awkwardness

and when sex did occur, It wouldn't

be enjoyable.

It just felt....weird, odd.

I fantasized my first girlfriend as a muscular man.

My second girlfriend wasn't butch enough, so

I lashed out at her.

My third girlfriend was too demanding, and

I didn't like her.

Memories of male on male lust which

had been repressed all came back to me

I told my family, and they all accept me,

thank God.

I know a little more about myself,

though self-acceptance is still a struggle.

I'm learning to be who I truly am,

and for that I am eternally grateful.

Amongst Giants

"Amongst Giants"

Cold hands

Grab the air

From lungs.

Icicles of regret

Sever thought

From action.

Silhouette 

of sticky

brush surrounds.

Bearded flannel

Shrieks;

The pines

Do nothing

But laugh.

Destiny? No

Destiny? No

Defining moments
never cease

The smell of
ginger pumpkin
placed in olfactories

Destiny? No

Human Behavior
decides,
not fate.

The door
sits open
inviting all
to take a peek
but never enter

When will the sun
explode, who is
to say?

Make memories
you would be jealous of.

Wet Lips

Fantastical winds
carry me

to a land
of alcohol
and debauchery;

Nude displays
and cherries
dipped in chocolate;

Water and sweat
dripping off of the
warm flesh;

it's only Thursday -
and I'm only dreaming....

Unicorns have feelings too

Dead eyes
see light
as it passes

through the
Kaleidoscope
of unicorn farts

Coming Out

Rebirth

Joyous felicity
encompasses
my being

Withdrawal
from the past
brings waves
of relief

Momentous
occasion
calls for
celebration

Death to denial
Life to acceptance

© Adam Levon Brown