My Coming Out Story

My Coming Out Story

I had just broken up with my third girlfriend

In the worst way possible.

I was starting to see a pattern.

Things would go smoothly

until the subject of sex arose.

There would just be an awkwardness

and when sex did occur, It wouldn't

be enjoyable.

It just felt....weird, odd.

I fantasized my first girlfriend as a muscular man.

My second girlfriend wasn't butch enough, so

I lashed out at her.

My third girlfriend was too demanding, and

I didn't like her.

Memories of male on male lust which

had been repressed all came back to me

I told my family, and they all accept me,

thank God.

I know a little more about myself,

though self-acceptance is still a struggle.

I'm learning to be who I truly am,

and for that I am eternally grateful.